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Yesterday my mother had to put down the dog I grew up with. He was 6 and a half years old and had had a heart murmur for at least three years. about 4 days ago Sandy lost his appetite and then later lost the ability to walk. My mother rang me at work saying that she had just taken Sandy to the vets to put him down.

I still don't think it has hit me yet. I keep expecting to see him around the house, doing his normal annoying getting in the way routine that he had down to a "T". I just wish I could have seen him one last time whilst he was alive.

I may be going to see him before he gets cremated yesterday, and I'm not sure whether I should be happy or sad about it. We've decided to get him individually cremated as opposed to the mass cremation of dead pets which is the norm. This is so his ashes will be ours to spread whereas the other option means he would be mixed with other dead animals and spread on the veterinary grounds.

I've never had to cope with death up until now. it may sound strange seeing as how I'm 22, but when my Gran died I was about 10, barely knew her and didn't understand it as well as I do now. I burst into tears at a doctors appointment today and must have looked a right douche choking on my own breath trying to explain my soar throat.

I love you Sandy, and I hope you have met up with all your friends, our family and your new girlfriend Pepsi (my girlfriends dog). Have fun up there and make sure you don't forget my face when I end up there.

You will always be in my heart



Thank you for taking the time to read this, I just had to get it out in any way possible.


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GriswaldTerrastone Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2010
You have our sympathies. Many of us know exactly what that's like; it's sad.

Being in dog rescue for so many years, it's strange to look at photos of many of those that have come and gone here and in our old home. How different things are now since our own Blackbeard died in 1981. Of all those no more.

Be assured you did all you could do for Sandy. Clearly you cared very much for him, and it will be a while before you get used to how it is without him. But that's normal.

Good luck to you now and in the future.
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woohooligan Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
:manhug:
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gumgum104 Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010
that sucks :(
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berrd Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010
Mum and I had to put down our dog about 2 years ago, it was the saddest day of my life :hug: But don't worry, he's up there now, happy as Larry :aww: I'm sure you gave him enough love and devotion to last an eternity :heart:
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kingmancheng Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010  Professional Filmographer
Sorry to hear that, my dogs got cataracts and will go fully blind, wondering how many years she has left now..
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Connarhea Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010
It's the slow loss of what they were that's the real heartache, just make sure you get the best out of the time she has left :)
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kingmancheng Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010  Professional Filmographer
Will try. :>
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Chanytell Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh im sorry that happened :tears:
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Connarhea Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010
me too :( at least he's not in pain anymore
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Chanytell Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yeah :(
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